Heaven Anniversary

🚨Trigger Warning Loss of a Loved One.🚨

September 24th Marked 10 Years that my sister took her last breath. For those that just met me, my sister passed away from Stage IV Gastric Cancer (my full story is here). I will never forget the day she called me to tell me that she was diagnosed with Cancer😭 Nor will I forget that last day😭
"I won't make it past today" she said. It was hard but I knew that she had fought bravely. She wanted to live but she had given it her all and surrendered to what was. The emotions I felt that day were mixed. Sadness and Relief.
😪 Sadness that she was gone
😕 Relief that she wasn't going to go through chemo and radiation anymore. 
We said our goodbyes and we knew that she could hear us. We felt it when she left her body, hovered over us, then left. The air lingering of emptiness. 
Over the past 10 years, I intentionally avoided working, because that was my way of honoring my sister and my grief. I just never knew what emotions would come up. 😭 But this year was different, as timing would have it, a conference that I really wanted to be part of feel in the middle of her Heaven Anniversary. 🍵 That morning I woke up READY to work. I could feel the difference within me, it was as if she said: 🌊 "The Tide has shifted, it is time to do this." & so I did. 
As I reflect on the years since my sister left this earth field,🌎 I can only say: Thank you for cheering me on sister. Thank you for all of the memories. Some days I hear you and you're still funny as heck. 
I miss you so much my dear sister, Karen. 👯‍♀️
-💓 Diana